new moon february 2024

happy new moon!

the sky is dark, the stars are twinkling in the absence of their celestial companion, and the clouds have moved on so i can see the night sky when i let the dogs out for their last pee before bed.

i have a tattoo that reads: tethered to the unfolding. its inked so i can read it in the mirror. i always imagined it to be a reminder for me when i was in the midst of the plan, whatever that might be, to stay true to the not knowing, but here i am stuck in the not knowing and it feels almost like a smirk, you said you were down for this.

the other day after a storm of emotion i sat down at my desk determined to make sense of what was roiling. what came out was a question: how do i sit in the limbo? here i am tethered to the unfolding.

i’m still writing my way through this message. understanding the discomfort and allowing it to just be. it is what it is. not knowing is uncomfortable. sometimes its exciting and others, excruciating. so when one of my favorite artists sent their newsletter out for the new moon earlier this week and it was all about sitting in the unknown and pondering, i felt so seen.

mystic mamma makes stunning collage work and calendars. their work has inspired some of my own work and their cosmic downloads are honest and always poignant. so i was really stoked to get this message of listening for this new moon. dedicating ourselves to what it is we are made for and allowing that to come to us organically, rather than forcing it.

sit where i am and listen to what is inside. don’t overwork it, let it percolate from the soil my ancestors are buried in. let it bubble up from my dreams.

i know this. i have known this. and i will forget it and then the universe will gently nudge me again, or slap me across the face if i haven’t been paying attention.

so i made a list of tools that help me sit in this not knowing, that allow me to keep my wits about me as the world rages and i seem to be stuck in limbo.

it will eventually turn into a piece of art. but for now its a simple list, cause damn i love a list and when all else fails i make a list of shit i know i will get done so i can have the satisfaction of crossing shit off the list and feeling the sense of accomplishment after i do so.

all the best.