bringing sexy back. showing up for self love.
/justin timberlake is not someone i thought i had a deep connection with but recently i realized his music is wrapped within a few foundational memories i have of feeling sexy, powerful and full of love for myself, a rare occurance when i was young. i wont bore you with the angsty memories of steamy summer night drives, but lets just say that when the universe told me my five year plan till 50 was called; bringin’ sexy back, i listened. hello jt. we meet again.
so my brother and i were born 3.5 years apart. which means that for half the year i am four years older than him. which also means that when his birthday arrives in june and we celebrate him with strawberry shortcake for dinner, my birthday is six months away. i love calendars and projects that fit withing time frames, i always give myself the gift of 30 days of walks that start the month before my birthday, and this year i realized at my brothers birthday that i was six months away from being five years away from 50!
welcome to my brain. it might be interesting or possibly concerning. i made it this far. i don’t think we need to worry.
after my brothers birthday i started to low key examine what i wanted to accomplish in 5 years. i gave my self 6 months to figure out what my five year plan till 50 was gonna be. cause 50 is when the shit gets real folks. that is when you start to either live the life of your dreams or cry a slow death with zillow and ice cream as your only friends. since you know i am not a develop a plan and stick to it type of girl, this may sound strange. but the thing is, i want to be. i want to be the sort of person who creates change mindfully in my life by taking daily steps towards what i want.
i identified a few things and feelings i want accomplish by the time i turn 50. some were easy, others less obvious, but i have a pretty good idea of how i want to feel in my body and my relationships. so i worked backward, and got to some basics i can implement now that will get me where i want to go. i simmered them down to 6 actions. i am calling them my non-negotiables. these specific tasks are focused on my health and emotional well being so i may cultivate a self love i lost somewhere in the midst of the pandemic and my movement practice which has fallen by the wayside since we moved to vermont. i am calling it my self - devotional practice, as it is a big act of self love to plan and plod towards something my inner most heart wishes to be true for me. its sexy to love yourself and be proud of oneself and our accomplishments. and so i’m bringing sexy back with these 6 non-negotiable daily actions. am i militant about this? nope. have i rearranged routines within our household so that these things get done? you bet and i have not done other things because i need to sit, or move, or drink water. {some other time i’d love to have a bigger conversation about the things we have to say no to so we may say yes to others. but i digress. }
this dark moon is a wonderful moment to sink into intention. whatever yours may be. mine is bringing sexy back.
the dark moon invites us to focus our intent upon the thing we want to grow, the dream we want to live. as the moon comes to full bloom so does your intent.
each day find your center.
remember your dream, what are you conjuring?
let the building energy of the moon help you find the energy of your dream.
this is the first new moon of the this year. we have time to settle into what it is we want to conjure for ourselves and those we love. you can dream big or small, weird or good. but dream. that is most important. dream of what you want. remember it in your heart every day.
with deep thanks
cathlinstar