I used to be paralyzed by the idea of change. I told myself that when I moved, or changed my job, or found a partner or lost the weight, my life would be better, happier, more fun. But I never moved, I couldn't quit my job, I was perpetually sleeping with people who did not love me and I never have lost any weight. I lived stuck in this story for years.
I finally quit my job, and got a new one, in a new state, but it was really the same job. I was still working too many hours, devoting too much of myself to a business that was run by a man who didn't value my expertise or opinion and wasn't willing to pay me my worth.
This experience, moving, finding myself in the same place in a different space made me realize how much I needed to change my own narrative. I needed to dive deep into my dreams and start recognizing what I valued, and what work I wanted to share with the world. I wanted to show up for myself.
I found that I wanted to share my strategies for sanity. The tools and methods for staying alive when the world and all its sadness feels like the only thing within your reach. I want to help other women struggling with their own worth, fighting with their own bodies.
My overwhelm and paralysis are not gone completely. I still struggle with showing up for myself. But I have recognized that reaching out, building community, and asking for support are vital to my journey. By listening to other women tell their stories and share their success, I learn how to share my own.