creative practice

i have been cultivating a writing practice all of my life. when i was younger i planned to leave instructions to have my writing published posthumously.  { i fancied myself a modern day emily dickinson} i applied to writing residency’s, summer camps, studied poetry, read poetry {outloud} and wrote poetry, i have the alphabet tattooed on my leg because it creates the words that i use to express myself.  

i consider myself a writer.  i have never published anything i have written.  someday i hope to.

this year i have been focusing on writing 1000 words every morning.  based loosely on julia camerons book, the artists way i started to explore my own relationship to a daily practice.  

it’s very satisfying.  i found a website that kept track of how many days in a row i write.  it even counted my words for me.  before i went on vacation i had written for three months consecutively.  last month under the full moon i burned all of my journals from high school.  


my relationship to writing and words is a life long friend.  it is challenging and satisfying.  i get to come back to them and ignore them and explore them.  occasionally i share but i write more words than i share.  


all of this to say my writing practice is ever evolving, and i do not know how my writing practice will manifest, or what it will look like, but i am a writer and i have a writing practice.  and for that i am thankful.  


{this a monthly space where i explore my creative practice}


i’d love to hear your feedback and thoughts. do you have a creative practice?


xoxo

plant medicine as mirror fundamentals.

when all else fails, reach for the soil. tend to my roots.

for me this means putting my hands in dirt. i repot house plants, i tend to the garden, i soak seeds, i read garden magazines and plot new flower beds. i go to the plants.

i know i need to go to the plants when all the other things i think i know don’t work.

and when i listen to the plants, quite literally sometimes if i just watch where they are in their life cycles i can usually find where i am in mine.

when i let myself be with the plants, the plant that speaks to me often has the medicine i need. for instance, i;m feeling all out of sorts lately. my mother bought me a gardenia a few weeks ago. when i came home from vacation with my brother and his family the gardenia was looking a little faded around the edges. i was feeling faded around the egdes, disney vacation is not my idea of restorative activity. the gardenia caught my attention and asked for daily hydration. the gardenia demanded its circumstances/requiremtns be met. and so i had to listen, or lose the gardenia. as i had to tend to my own needs, hydration and rest, or lose my health.

the plants mirror our reality. they are the medicine.

spring ritual salt

plants provide so much medicine in my life and when i infuse my plant medicine with my seasonal magic it feels really good.  this practice connects me to the essence of what makes me smile.  it is raw, innocent, vulnerable, messy and tear stained it fills my heart with gratitude to feel everything and trust myself.  


i have always loved potions and glass bottles.  i love to create magic that i can give to others.  in this vein i made some spring ritual salt the other day.  

originally i made this salt for a new moon bath earlier in the spring.  at the time i was feeling called to move my lymphatic system.  the first hints of warm weather were floating in the wind and i found a bunch of dried lemon verbena that smelled exactly like i wanted my body to feel;  alive and invigorated.  so i mixed that lemon verbena with nettles, rosemary, raspberry leaf and catnip.  because i was gonna soak in these herbs i added some grey sea salt i keep and this spring blend was born.  


i have played around with my ratio and blend, and just finished blessing the final batch!


which is why i am writing this.  i am gonna offer this on my website.  the first ever store item for because love.  there are a few other goodies in there, that i have been creating quietly.  i hope you find something that peaks your curiosity or inspires a connection.  


as always i would love to hear what you think.  please reach out my dear, i am always close. 


xo

the magic of noticing

 

in february i went to center space in grand rapids michigan to write for ten days.  i lived with strangers and internet friends for over a week and made art and cooked food and watched the world.  while there, a new friend commented on my tendency to share things i noticed in the natural world, squirrels eating outside the kitchen window for instance.  ever since that comment i have been really examining the way i notice the world.  and of course i related it back to plants, and now i am teaching a workshop this weekend called the magic of noticing.   

so i have been researching noticing, and what happens when we notice the world around us.  the magic of noticing is an opportunity to make time expand.  it is about realizing the present moment and recognizing that we have free will in that moment.  that we can be how we want to be as we are right now.  this is not about accepting the circumstances, it is about realizing where we have agency and making change.  your change may be big, maybe its small but it starts with noticing.  i told you i related this back to plants of course.  houseplants specifically but now even outside is full of small things growing that we can notice.

go outside. notice something alive.

so this free will that we exercise is really powerful and we can harness it and understand it when we use noticing as a tool.  noticing starts pretty small, minutia, but once we get good at noticing we can start to really notice bigger things. noticing is a tool we can use to build connection.  this is not surprising.  but its juicy.  

noticing gives us the power to really feel where we are, in our body, in our surroundings, in our homes, in our work environments,  when we begin to notice how our body feels when we are in a certain place and time we begin to make connections about our body and our feelings in that specific time and space. are you still with me?

connection. what happens when we are in connection with living beings around us? how can we be of service to the living beings we share space with?  this is where the real magic of noticing hits us. it is the moment we realize that we are part of bigger natural systems. when we are able to notice our connection to the natural world, whether we struggle with the time change of daylight savings time, or we crave sweeter richer foods in the fall or we feel as if we will explode in february if there is not a sunny warm day soon. often these moments of recognition are distilling a frustration or a disconnect we have with the universe around us. note that it can feel easier to notice discomfort before comfort, pain is information after all. these moments of noticing, that illuminate our part in the cycles of the earth are invitations to use our free will to make the tiniest shift towards feeling good, or better in your moment. perhaps reconciling the disconnect we have with the earth is what this noticing is best for. i don’t know. but i know that my noticing brings me into the present, brings me the gift of realizing and recognizing how i am connected to the natural world, i am a part of it, no matter how removed from it i feel. i am an animal, the rhythms of the earth affect my existence and noticing brings me deeper connection and understanding of this truth.

a huge component of my research in to noticing has been reciprocity. noticing is about being in relation with the world around you, and fostering deeper connection with your world. when we do this work, we begin to understand the reciprocal nature of our being in relation with other living beings. what we tend to grows, literally and figuratively. what we cultivate and use grows stronger, what we notice blooms.

catching up.

This space has not really caught up with all that has been happening here.  


So i am gonna fill you in quickly.

Basically this blog is a documentation of my identity crisis as a health coach.  


I am coming into my own.  Hello Integration!


There is a slow shift happening here as I dissolve walker whole health.  I am not going anywhere. I am shedding old skins that no longer hold what I am offering.  The phrase because love came to me last year in the desert and I have been realizing how it will take shape and hold my work going forward.  


Really there is nothing changing.  And at the same time everything is constantly changing.


I host group coaching calls every month.  They are pay what you can and a really lovely container to explore how we are and what we need in the midst of our lives as they whir past us.  


I am teaching workshops locally which feels really good.  My hope is to continue teaching here in my community and to also travel and teach in 2019.


I send out a newsletter on the dark and full moons every month. Sometimes it is full of juicy tidbits and advice, other times it’s musings of the season.  It is always from my heart.


I am in the process of creating a seasonal ritual product line.  Small batch botanic tools made by me, to capture the spirit & medicine of the seasons.  It’s a super fun, and really hard process. I cannot wait to share with you. So stay tuned to get the latest updates.